New Zealand Weekly Update #98

02nd of September to 8th of September 2024

Approximate reading time: 5 minutes

Lets get it started

Heya folks, late as usual. It sneaks itself in as we would say in Germany. It is quite funny, after living in New Zealand for almost two years, I actually thought about thinking. I am nit sure if I think in English, in german or in whatever language. As I arrived in New Zealand, it was quite tough having conversations. As I would think about what I wanted to say. First in German, then I would translate it in my head, would think about if it makes sense and then I would speak. This process takes time and energy and I am not sure when it switched. Now, I can have deep conversations, I can express myself in different ways. I feel like sometimes I can express myself much better in English, I can talk about my feelings, my thoughts in a much better way in my second language, for whatever reason. Maybe because I do not think about it too much, I do not overthink it. I just do, I just say, I just be. And I recently discovered that I actually miss Christmas time in Germany. The lights, the snow, the cold, the music, the christmas markets. Crowded. Full of lights and little cozy wooden houses. A pyramid in the center. A little train for the children. A big tree with lights. Snow from above. And you in between, with family and friends. Having mulled wine, a sausage, some crepes. Whatsoever. And you have another mulled wine. And another. Lühleeeii in your head, merry Christmas!

Scoby Hotel
Weird art
Swing by the lake
Lavalamp gone wild
Ready to bottle!

Trust

This week was all about who to trust, how to trust when to trust and what to do when words do not meet actions. I needed support, desperately. I was promised support, immediately, with all the focus and all the power another person could afford, give and show. And I trusted. I genuinely trusted. Without doubt. With empathy. With hope. With faith. And I trusted the bigger picture. And as the day showed up when this trust had to be proven, it got smashed into the bin. It got kicked, punched and it got broken. As words did not meet actions. As words were just words, Empty. Useless. Just a shadow without power, just a little breeze. And out of a sudden, I was upset, angry, and disappointed. But not just about this person and everyone around this person. I was upset and disappointed with myself. As I trusted without doubt. As I trusted without proof if I can trust. And I know this does not reveal anything about me as a person, but everything about the others. And about their true goals, their true intentions and how they care or do not care. Living a life without being selfish, arrogant, a liar or just an asshole can be sometimes pretty exhausting, draining and usually comes with a lot of disappointment.

What else to say?

However, I still made the best out of this week, with some great support from Sammy and with some moments up the mountains. As it was Sammys first time on a snowboard, we decided to take it easy, so we took up some snacks, drinks and took out time up the training slopes, step by step. And what can I say? She did an amazing job, considering I was the „coach“ with myl ast snowboard experience back in 2005 or 2006. And we finally managed to get up the hill with the lift and to have one long run with quite tough conditions, ice on the tracks and wind up to 50km per hour. And well, she had some sore muscles and bruisers, but quite a big smile on her face. Happy days folks!